Relief is a good word for what I was feeling this morning before it came back. There was a sense of freedom- of knowing that whatever I was going to do today, it would not be scrolling on there. I realized it was back accidentally, reflexively opening the app as I did many times late last night and this morning (oh dear, the pathways that are ingrained...) and the tentative confusion and then excitement was quickly overshadowed by (of all things) frustration and anger.
I feel like I have emotional whiplash. I'm not spending any time on there today. I've given this app too much of my spirit this past week. That being said, I don't begrudge any of that time I spent there and the work I did to keep the things and people who matter- I approached it in good faith. The things and people I've gained from it are real, and special, and they matter, which is why I care so much. But I don't think Tiktok/the forces behind the ban and the timing and the messages approached anything in good faith at all. It feels like a political playground now- like my taps and likes and follows are (and maybe always were) just tools and machinations for some bigger entity. I just feel like I've been yanked around and made a fool of. My way of "punishing" this app (that doesn't care if I exist, by the way) is to stay off it. I'm taking back my time. No better day to start GTFO phone February. I still have my printouts I made from attempting it last year- I'm re attaching them to the side of my shelf by my desk to work thru them daily.
Today I've finished my holiday newsletter. I've drawn our holiday cards. I've taken a nap. I've listened to a podcast. My husband is making banana bread, and I'll run a loaf of that over to a sick friend this afternoon. Planning on working on a substack post and doing some laundry and some cleaning this afternoon.
Yanked around is exactly how this felt. I equated it to an abusive relationship and even just feeling used. I’m going to join you in downloading the GTFO Phone February. It’s time.
I wasn’t happy when it shut off last night and I’m not at all happy about how it came back today. It’s been deleted from my phone and I’ve plenty to do on Substack and, get this, my regular ordinary life.
I tried moving all social media to my iPad today, I like the idea of trying things for a week and seeing how they feel, making changes as necessary.
I had the same feeling with TT! I was actually glad to know that time suck (which I should totally be responsible for and learn some boundaries) was just going to be unavailable to me. I haven't opened it since it came back and I want to see how long I can go without it.
Relief is a good word for what I was feeling this morning before it came back. There was a sense of freedom- of knowing that whatever I was going to do today, it would not be scrolling on there. I realized it was back accidentally, reflexively opening the app as I did many times late last night and this morning (oh dear, the pathways that are ingrained...) and the tentative confusion and then excitement was quickly overshadowed by (of all things) frustration and anger.
I feel like I have emotional whiplash. I'm not spending any time on there today. I've given this app too much of my spirit this past week. That being said, I don't begrudge any of that time I spent there and the work I did to keep the things and people who matter- I approached it in good faith. The things and people I've gained from it are real, and special, and they matter, which is why I care so much. But I don't think Tiktok/the forces behind the ban and the timing and the messages approached anything in good faith at all. It feels like a political playground now- like my taps and likes and follows are (and maybe always were) just tools and machinations for some bigger entity. I just feel like I've been yanked around and made a fool of. My way of "punishing" this app (that doesn't care if I exist, by the way) is to stay off it. I'm taking back my time. No better day to start GTFO phone February. I still have my printouts I made from attempting it last year- I'm re attaching them to the side of my shelf by my desk to work thru them daily.
Today I've finished my holiday newsletter. I've drawn our holiday cards. I've taken a nap. I've listened to a podcast. My husband is making banana bread, and I'll run a loaf of that over to a sick friend this afternoon. Planning on working on a substack post and doing some laundry and some cleaning this afternoon.
Yanked around is exactly how this felt. I equated it to an abusive relationship and even just feeling used. I’m going to join you in downloading the GTFO Phone February. It’s time.
I wasn’t happy when it shut off last night and I’m not at all happy about how it came back today. It’s been deleted from my phone and I’ve plenty to do on Substack and, get this, my regular ordinary life.
I tried moving all social media to my iPad today, I like the idea of trying things for a week and seeing how they feel, making changes as necessary.
I had the same feeling with TT! I was actually glad to know that time suck (which I should totally be responsible for and learn some boundaries) was just going to be unavailable to me. I haven't opened it since it came back and I want to see how long I can go without it.